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Part 6

“But you did.”

“Yes.”

“You don’t know me.”

“No.”

“You don’t know where the watch came from.”

“No.”

“You don’t know whether that photograph is real.”

“It is.”

“You don’t know that.”

“I know the photograph.”

“That doesn’t mean the rest of it is true.”

“What rest?”

His eyes narrowed.

Lydia waited.

Adrian looked between them. “What do you know about it?”

The stranger ignored him.

Lydia’s pulse became audible in her ears. “Someone told you something.”

He gave no answer.

“The person who gave you the watch,” she said. “Did they tell you where it came from?”

“Stop.”

“Was it your mother?”

“Stop.”

“Was it someone who raised you?”

“I said stop.”

His voice did not rise, but a woman passing nearby glanced over.

Lydia immediately fell silent.

The stranger looked angry now, but beneath the anger she saw fear. His left hand remained in his coat pocket around the watch.

“I’m sorry,” Lydia said.

He looked almost offended by the apology.

“I mean it.”

“You don’t know what you’re apologizing for.”

“For asking questions you did not agree to answer.”

He stared at her for a long moment.

The station clock clicked again.

Adrian rubbed his thumb along the side seam of his coat. He had done that as a child when trying not to cry. Lydia had not seen the habit in years.

“Can I ask one thing?” he said.

The stranger looked at him.

“You can say no.”

“That’s generous.”

Adrian absorbed the remark. “The white streak. Have you always had it?”

The stranger’s expression changed by less than a breath.

“Yes.”

“So have I.”

“I can see that.”

“Doctors said it was probably genetic.”

“Doctors say things.”

“Did anyone in your family have it?”

The stranger looked toward the traffic.

Adrian waited.

“No,” the stranger said at last.

The answer did not sound like a fact. It sounded like a door closing.

Lydia studied the scar through his eyebrow. It was old, cleanly healed. She wanted to ask about it. She wanted to ask where he slept, when he last ate, whether he had been ill, who had cut his hair before it grew out, whether he hated mustard the way Adrian did, whether he woke at four in the morning on the anniversary of the evacuation without knowing why.

Instead she said, “Are you cold?”

Adrian looked at her in disbelief.

The stranger almost smiled again. “That’s your question?”

“No. It is simply something I noticed.”

“I’m always cold.”

The words were casual. Lydia felt them physically.

Nora glanced toward the hotel. “There’s a private sitting room off the east lobby. No cameras inside, no event traffic, separate entrance.”

The stranger looked at her. “You expect me to go into that hotel?”

“No,” Nora said. “I’m telling Ms. Marlowe what is available.”

“Why no cameras?”

“Because a woman across the street already photographed you.”

His gaze snapped toward the sidewalk. The woman in the red scarf had disappeared.

Adrian took out his phone.

“What are you doing?” Lydia asked.

“Checking.”

“Checking what?”

“Whether she posted it.”

“Don’t.”

“If she recognized you—”

“I said don’t.”

He looked at his mother. “You think not looking changes it?”

The question was quiet. Lydia had heard versions of it from him all his life.

Nora took out her own phone. “I’ll handle it.”

The stranger gave a bitter sound. “Of course you will.”

Nora met his eyes. “I cannot stop a stranger from posting a photograph. I can find out whether she did.”

“And then?”

“Then I can tell you the truth instead of pretending the risk does not exist.”

He considered her.

Nora’s calm was different from Lydia’s. Lydia’s composure had power behind it. Nora’s came from years of standing near powerful people without becoming impressed by them.

“What’s your name?” Adrian asked again.

The stranger looked at him.

“Not for a headline,” Adrian said. “Not for anything. I just don’t know what to call you.”

“You don’t need to call me.”

“I might.”

“Why?”

Adrian opened his mouth and failed to answer.

Lydia watched him struggle. He had always been articulate when the subject was business, architecture, financing, anything that could be framed as a problem with variables. He had presented redevelopment plans to boards twice his age without notes. Now his voice had reduced to the uncertainty of a child.

“Because I have spent my whole life knowing there was someone missing,” he said. “And you’re standing there with his face.”

The stranger’s eyes lowered.

Adrian continued, the words coming unevenly. “Maybe it means nothing. Maybe it means something terrible. Maybe you found the watch in a trash can. I don’t know. But I can’t call you ‘him’ in my head for the rest of this conversation.”

The stranger looked at Lydia.

“Did you teach him that?” he asked.

“No.”

“Good.”

Adrian let out a small, startled breath that might have been a laugh.

The stranger heard it. His own mouth shifted in the same uneven way.

Then the resemblance struck them both again, and the almost-humor vanished.

“Jamie,” the stranger said.

Lydia’s knees weakened.

Nora moved closer.

Adrian whispered, “What?”

“My name is Jamie.”

Lydia reached for nothing and found Nora’s hand beneath her elbow.

Jamie noticed.

He took a step back.

Lydia forced her weight onto both feet. “I’m all right.”

“No, you’re not,” Nora murmured.

The name had been Julian’s second name.

Julian James Marlowe.

After the evacuation, Lydia’s husband had insisted they stop using Julian aloud. He said it made the absence too present. Lydia had compromised by whispering James into her pillow when she could not sleep.

Years later, during their divorce, her husband accused her of building the foundation because she preferred public grief to private marriage. Lydia told him he preferred forgetting because forgetting required less courage.

Neither accusation had been entirely fair.

Neither had been entirely false.

“Jamie what?” Adrian asked.

Jamie’s face closed again. “You got one.”

“Sorry.”

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“No, you’re not.”

Adrian looked down. “No. I’m not.”

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