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He immediately looked at me.
The betrayal in his face was so quick and complete that I felt physically sick.
“You told.”
I did not defend myself.
“Yes.”
“You said you wouldn't forget.”
“I didn't.”
“You told.”
“Yes.”
His chair scraped backward.
Maya startled.
“Leo.”
“Don't.”
He grabbed the napkin from his pocket.
The cold pizza was still inside it.
He held it against his chest.
“You're the same.”
The words were quiet.
No screaming.
No tears.
Just judgment.
Then he ran toward the front door.
I moved after him.
Dana said, “Don't chase him.”
I stopped.
Every part of me wanted to ignore her.
Leo reached the door, turned the deadbolt, and pulled.
The alarm chime sounded.
He froze because he had not expected it.
I stayed where I was.
“I'm not stopping you from being mad.”
He looked over his shoulder.
“You lied.”
“No.”
“You did.”
“I told you I wouldn't forget.”
“You told them.”
“Yes.”
“Why?”
“Because what happened to you matters.”
“I didn't say it happened to me.”
The room went still.
Dana did not move.
Neither did Delaney.
I lowered my voice.
“Okay.”
Leo's breathing was fast.
“I don't want to talk.”
“You don't have to.”
“I don't want her.”
He pointed at Dana.
Dana said, “That's okay.”
“I don't want anyone.”
His eyes found mine again.
“I want my mom.”
There it was.
The one thing no court order could give him.
No support plan.
No bunk bed.
No promise.
I walked to the hallway and sat on the floor, far enough away that he still had space.
He remained beside the door.
“I can't fix that.”
His face crumpled.
Not all at once.
First his mouth.
Then his chin.
Then whatever had been holding the rest of him together.
He slid down the door.
I did not touch him.
He cried with both hands pressed over his eyes.
Maya climbed out of her chair.
I looked at her.
She looked at Leo.
Then, for the first time since I had met them, she stopped herself before going to him.
She came to me instead.
She leaned against my shoulder and whispered, “Can you do it?”
I looked at Leo.
“Do what?”
“The two pats.”
I lifted my hand.
Leo did not tell me no.
So I moved closer and placed my palm lightly between his shoulder blades.
Once.
Twice.
Then I stopped.
Leo did not lean into my hand, but he did not pull away either.
After a minute, his crying quieted enough that I could hear Ben chewing toast at the kitchen table.
Dana Price stayed where she was.
She did not open a notebook.
She did not ask another question.
That restraint probably did more for her than any introduction could have.
Leo wiped his face with his sleeve and looked at me.
“You still told.”
“Yes.”
His eyes dropped.
“I might have to tell things again.”
He looked up sharply.
“Why?”
“If you tell me somebody is hurting you, or something dangerous happened, I can't promise to keep it only between us.”
“You should.”
“I know why you'd want that.”
“No, you don't.”
He was probably right.
So I did not tell him I understood.
I said, “But I can promise I'll tell you when I have to tell somebody.”
He considered that.
“Before?”
“If I can.”
“Not after?”
“Not if I can help it.”
Dana finally spoke.
“That is a good rule.”
Leo glared at her.
“I didn't ask you.”
Dana nodded.
“Fair.”
Something about her willingness to lose the argument seemed to interest him.
He stood slowly.
The folded napkin remained clutched in his hand.
Maya touched my shoulder.
“Two more.”
I patted Leo's back twice.
He frowned.
“You don't have to do it every time.”
“I was instructed.”
Maya gave me a tiny smile.
That morning did not become easier after that.
It became more honest.
Dana did not interview Leo in the house.
She explained that if he spoke with the child advocacy team, it would happen later in a setting designed for children, with as few repeated questions as possible.
He hated the idea.
He also hated cereal, the county badge on her belt, and the fact that my refrigerator made ice loudly.
By noon, the investigative unit had confirmed something Delaney had suspected.
The children's mother, Amanda Mercer, had been treated twice in the previous year for accidental prescription medication overdoses.
The records did not prove what happened on the night of the fire.
They did prove that Leo's memories had not come from nowhere.
Their father, Daniel, had taken intermittent family leave from his job, missed work repeatedly, and apparently told relatives that Amanda suffered from migraines and exhaustion.
No one had reported the family to child services before the fire.
There was no neat monster waiting at the end of the paperwork.
There was a sick woman.
A husband who may have underestimated how bad things had become.
A six-year-old boy who learned that crying babies could wake adults.
And five children who survived long enough for strangers to argue about where they belonged.
The fire investigator later determined that the blaze had started in overloaded wiring behind the master-bedroom wall.
No one caused it deliberately.
Amanda and Daniel had both died from smoke inhalation.
Whatever failures existed before that night, the fire itself had been brutally ordinary.
For Leo, that distinction did not matter much.
For the adults, it mattered because adults like categories.
Accident.
Neglect.
Trauma.
Placement.
For a child, the category was simpler.
Before.
After.
The first fourteen days were terrible.
Not tragic.
Not cinematic.
Terrible in repetitive, domestic ways.
Ellie developed an ear infection on day three and screamed through most of one night.
Ben discovered he could unlock the pantry with a butter knife.
June bit him because he would not share a marker.
Maya refused the upstairs bedroom completely.
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Leo hid food in three places I found and at least two I did not.
I burned oatmeal.
