Chương 3

She pulled her hand back under the blanket.
“Coffee,” she repeated.
Gavin left the room.
The waiting area vending machine sold weak coffee in paper cups for two dollars. He bought one and forgot to drink it. A television mounted near the ceiling showed a home renovation program with the captions on. A cheerful couple argued about cabinet colors while a contractor smiled between them.
Gavin sat beneath the television and listened to the sounds of the emergency department: rubber soles, rolling carts, a child crying behind a curtain, someone asking for an insurance card.
He checked his messages.
There were seventeen from Margaret.
Call me now.
You are humiliating this family.
Do not sign anything at the hospital.
Gwen has been confused for weeks.
Paige says you threatened her.
We need to discuss the settlement.
The last message arrived while he was reading the others.
Do not let Gwen turn you against the people who kept your life together.
He read that one twice.
Then he opened the recording.
His own voice sounded flatter than he remembered. The line about four hundred thousand dollars was clear. So were Margaret’s words: The shop, the duplex, the brokerage account. We’ll put everything back where it belongs.
Back.
He saved the file, emailed it to himself, and copied it to a secure storage folder his attorney had once told him to use for Braddock documents. Then he sat with the coffee warming his palm and tried to understand how a house could look exactly the same while becoming unrecognizable.
A social worker came to find him almost an hour later.
Her name was Denise Hall. She wore green scrubs beneath a gray cardigan and held a notebook against her chest.
“Your wife has given permission for you to come back,” she said. “Before we do, I need to ask whether you have somewhere safe to stay tonight.”
“My house.”
“Is that the house you just left?”
He looked at her.
She did not soften the question. “Do you have another place?”
Gavin pictured the motel near Braddock where he had spent twelve weeks in a room that smelled of fryer oil from the restaurant next door. He pictured his friend Marcus’s apartment above a closed dental office. He pictured the narrow break room at his metal shop, with its vinyl couch and humming refrigerator.
“Yes,” he said. “I’ll find one.”
“That is not the same answer.”
“No. It isn’t.”
Denise waited.
He had always disliked people who waited after asking a question. Silence made him rush to fill it.
“My friend has a place,” he said. “Or a motel. I have money for a motel.”
“For how long?”
“As long as she needs.”
Denise made a note.
“Mrs. Cole says the people in that house control some of your finances.”
“They manage family property.”
“Do they control your personal bank account?”
“No.”
“Her account?”
Gavin looked toward the emergency room doors.
“I don’t know.”
“That uncertainty matters.”
When he returned to Gwen’s room, she was receiving fluids through an IV. The hat lay folded on the counter. Without it, her scalp looked smaller and more vulnerable, but she no longer tried to cover it.
Dr. Patel explained that Gwen was dehydrated, anemic, and at increased risk of infection. Her cancer had not suddenly worsened, but missing treatment and medication had placed her in danger. She needed to be admitted overnight, possibly longer.
Gavin heard only one word.
“Cancer?”
Gwen closed her eyes.
Dr. Patel stopped speaking.
Gavin gripped the back of the chair.
“What cancer?”
“Gavin,” Gwen said.
He stared at her.
She turned her face away.
Dr. Patel said, “I’m going to give you both a moment.”
The door closed behind him.
Gavin remained standing.
“You have cancer.”
“Yes.”
“How long?”
“Since February.”
It was June.
He sat down slowly.
In February he had been working six days a week at the shop while negotiating the Braddock assignment. Gwen had complained about fatigue and bruises. Margaret said she was being dramatic. Paige joked that Gwen had become allergic to work. Gavin had told his wife to schedule a physical.
Then he left for Savannah in March.
“You told me the tests were normal.”
“I lied.”
“Why?”
She looked toward the IV bag. “At first because they weren’t sure. Then because you were leaving for the contract.”
“I would not have left.”
“I know.”
The words hurt more than an accusation.
He rubbed both hands over his face. Metal dust remained beneath his nails despite the shower he had taken that morning.
“What kind?”
“Lymphoma.”
“What stage?”
“Three.”
He lowered his hands.
She continued before he could speak.
“The doctor said it responds well to treatment. I started chemotherapy. The first cycle was bad. The second was worse. Your mother took me to appointments.”
“My mother knew.”
“Yes.”
“Paige knew.”
“Yes.”
“And nobody told me.”
“You called every night.”
“Not every night.”
“Most nights.”
“I asked how you were.”
“You asked if I’d paid the steel supplier and whether the roof leak had come back.”
He opened his mouth.
She looked at him then, and the exhaustion in her face stripped away every defense he might have used.
“You asked how I was too,” she said. “I said tired. You said you were tired too.”
Gavin sat back.
A machine near the bed made a soft double tone. Somewhere down the hall, a cart rattled over a seam in the floor.
“Why did they shave you?” he asked.
Gwen watched the ceiling again.
“My hair started falling out in clumps. I wore the hat. Paige said it made me look sick in front of people. Yesterday she locked the bathroom door and said she was going to make it even. I was too weak to stop her.”
“Did she cut you on purpose?”
“I don’t know.”
“Did she apologize?”
“No.”
“Did Mom know?”
“She held the trash bag.”
Gavin stood.
The chair tipped backward and struck the wall.
May you like
Gwen flinched.
He caught it before it fell, set it upright, and forced both hands to his sides.