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She expected to feel abandoned.

Instead, beneath the fear, something colder had begun taking shape.

Ryan had left her on the floor.

Whatever happened next, Claire knew she would never again be able to pretend he had merely walked out of a room.

The operating room was colder than Claire expected, though later she could never decide whether the chill came from the air or from hearing people speak about her body as if it had become a problem with moving parts.

A nurse placed a cap over her hair and told her to keep breathing.

Dr. Patel stood near Claire’s shoulder while an anesthesiologist explained what would happen if they had time for a spinal block and what would happen if they did not.

Claire nodded at words she barely absorbed.

“Her heart rate is dropping again,” someone said.

The anesthesiologist stopped talking.

Dr. Patel leaned closer.

“Claire, we need to move faster.”

“Do whatever you have to.”

“We may need general anesthesia.”

“Is she still alive?”

“Yes.”

The answer came quickly enough that Claire believed it.

“Then do it.”

A mask lowered over her face.

Claire turned her head once, irrationally searching the room for someone she knew.

There was no Ryan.

There was no Daniel.

There was only a nurse with tired eyes holding Claire’s hand as medication burned into the IV.

“You’re not alone,” the nurse said.

Claire wanted to tell her that technically she was.

Darkness arrived before she could.

Daniel Mercer was halfway through reheated chicken at his apartment when Claire’s call came, and seven minutes later he was in uniform pants, a gray T-shirt, and boots he had tied badly enough that one lace dragged across the parking lot.

He did not call Ryan immediately.

That surprised him.

At thirty-six, Daniel had spent most of his adult life being professionally trained not to act on the first impulse that entered his head, yet his family still treated him as if every silence meant he was one insult away from kicking down a door.

Sometimes they were not entirely wrong.

He drove toward the hospital with both hands locked on the steering wheel.

Claire had begged him not to do anything stupid.

The fact that she had needed to say it told him enough about her condition to make his stomach hurt.

At a red light outside Fayetteville, he called Ryan.

The call went unanswered.

Daniel called again.

Then a third time.

On the fourth attempt, Ryan picked up.

“What?”

Music thudded in the background.

Daniel stared at the red traffic signal.

“Where are you?”

“Who is this?”

“Daniel.”

There was a pause.

The music seemed to move farther away.

“Oh.”

“Where are you?”

“At dinner.”

“My sister is in emergency surgery.”

“What?”

Daniel’s jaw flexed.

“You heard me.”

“No, I didn’t know that.”

“She called you.”

“She called Mom.”

“She called you before that.”

“I had my phone on silent.”

“She was bleeding when the ambulance picked her up.”

Ryan did not answer.

The light turned green.

A horn sounded behind Daniel.

He drove.

“Which hospital?”

Ryan asked.

Daniel told him.

“I’m leaving now.”

“No.”

“What do you mean, no?”

“I mean don’t drive if you’ve been drinking.”

“I had one glass of wine.”

“Then get someone else to drive.”

Ryan exhaled sharply.

“You don’t get to order me around.”

Daniel nearly laughed.

Instead he said, “Tonight, I do.”

“Daniel—”

“Get there safely.”

He ended the call before anger could choose the next sentence.

For the first twenty miles, he imagined every version of what might be happening in the operating room.

Then training took over, not dramatically, but in small disciplines.

He checked his speed.

He called the hospital.

He confirmed Claire had been admitted.

He called his commanding officer and explained there was a family emergency.

He stopped for gas because the tank was below a quarter and because running out on the highway would be the kind of stupid thing Claire would mock him for until they were eighty.

At the pump, a moth battered itself against the fluorescent light above him.

Daniel watched it for three seconds too long.

Then his phone rang.

It was the hospital.

He answered before the first full ring.

A nurse told him Claire was out of surgery.

The baby had been delivered.

Both were alive.

Daniel bent forward until his forehead touched the roof of his truck.

The nurse continued speaking.

Claire had suffered significant blood loss.

The baby, a girl, had been taken to the neonatal intensive care unit for monitoring because of respiratory distress and complications related to the abruption.

Daniel closed his eyes.

“What does Claire know?”

“She’s still recovering from anesthesia.”

“Can I talk to her?”

“Not yet.”

“I’m on my way.”

He hung up and stood beside the pump with tears running down his face while a teenager on the other side of the island pretended not to notice.

Ryan arrived at Wake County Medical Center forty-three minutes after Claire entered surgery.

Evelyn came with him.

That decision would matter later.

At the time, Ryan simply did not want to come alone.

Evelyn had protested leaving before dessert.

Then Ryan told her there was an emergency C-section.

Her face had drained of color, and she had immediately picked up her purse.

Now she walked beside him through the emergency entrance wearing a dark blue dress, pearl earrings, and the expression of a woman determined to turn terror into administration.

At the desk, Ryan gave Claire’s name.

The receptionist asked his relationship.

“Husband.”

She typed.

Then she looked up.

“Please have a seat.”

“I need to see my wife.”

“She’s in recovery.”

“And my baby?”

“I don’t have permission to provide additional information from this desk.”

Ryan frowned.

“I’m the father.”

“I understand.”

“Then why can’t you tell me where my daughter is?”

The receptionist remained polite.

“Someone from the care team will speak with you.”

Evelyn touched his arm.

“Don’t start.”

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