Chương 4

Evelyn demanded Lily. Claire refused. Evelyn reached toward the baby. Claire turned away, protecting Lily against her chest. Natalie told her to stop being theatrical.
Claire placed Lily in the crib because she was afraid of dropping her.
“Evelyn grabbed my wrist,” Claire said. “She said I was sick. She said she had spoken to someone who could arrange an evaluation.”
“What someone?” Mara asked.
“I don’t know. A lawyer. A doctor. She wanted me to think she could have me taken away.”
Daniel’s jaw tightened.
Claire continued before he could speak. “I pulled away. She held on. I shoved her arm. Not her body. Just her arm. Natalie said, ‘There. You saw that.’ Like they were waiting.”
Daniel looked at Mara.
Mara did not react.
“Then Evelyn slapped me,” Claire said. “I hit the side of the rocking chair when I fell. She grabbed my blouse when I tried to stand. Natalie kicked my phone away. They told me if I said they touched me, they would tell everyone I attacked Evelyn while holding Lily.”
“Did you have Lily in your arms when you pushed her?” Mara asked.
“No. Lily was in the crib.”
“Are you certain?”
Claire’s eyes flashed. “Yes.”
Mara nodded. “I had to ask.”
“I know.”
“What happened next?”
“They stood there.”
Claire’s voice broke, not into a sob but into something flatter.
“Lily was crying. I was on the floor. Evelyn said I should look at myself. Natalie poured more wine from the bottle on the dresser.”
Daniel frowned. “There was wine in the nursery?”
“She brought the bottle.”
Natalie’s glass had remained half full when police arrived. On the dresser, between the drying baby bottles and a folded burp cloth, Officer Shah had found an open bottle of cabernet.
The detail seemed absurd enough to be false.
It was also exactly the kind of thing Natalie would do.
Claire said Evelyn told her they would wait for Daniel and explain that she had become violent. She told Natalie to remove the suitcase. When they left the room, Claire reached for the phone. Natalie returned, pulled it out of reach, and nearly shut the door.
“Then I remembered the emergency setting,” Claire said. “Five presses on the side button. I could reach it with my foot.”
Mara stopped writing.
Daniel imagined Claire on the floor, stretching her bare foot across the rug toward the phone while his mother stood outside preparing a story.
He pressed his lips against Lily’s head.
The baby smelled of formula and the lavender detergent Claire used despite Evelyn’s complaints that it was too cheap.
“Did the phone record anything?” Sergeant Hayes asked later.
He stood near the curtain with Officer Shah. The cracked phone rested inside a clear evidence bag.
“I turned on the recorder before I started packing,” Claire said.
Daniel looked at her.
She seemed embarrassed.
“Rebecca told me to document conversations,” she said. “I kept deleting the recordings because I felt ridiculous.”
“Did you delete this one?” Hayes asked.
“I don’t know. Natalie kicked the phone. It might still be running.”
The officer did not promise that it would contain usable evidence. He explained that the phone would need to be preserved and examined. Claire signed a consent form with a trembling hand.
At two in the morning, Daniel drove her and Lily to the apartment near the rescue base.
The apartment occupied the second floor of an aging brick building above a dental office. Daniel had used it during overnight rotations because the estate was forty minutes from the airfield. It had one bedroom, a narrow kitchen, and pipes that knocked whenever the upstairs tenant showered.
Claire stood in the doorway holding Lily while Daniel carried in the diaper bag and a bundle of hospital discharge papers. He had changed out of his flight uniform at the hospital but still wore the black boots. The apartment smelled stale.
“I don’t have a crib,” he said.
“We have the travel bassinet.”
“At the estate.”
Claire’s face closed.
“I’ll buy one,” he said quickly. “There’s a twenty-four-hour store near the highway.”
“You’re exhausted.”
“I’m not putting her in a drawer.”
“I wasn’t suggesting a drawer.”
“I know.”
They stared at each other.
Then Claire laughed once, unexpectedly. The sound was tired and almost angry.
“My mother said she put Rebecca in a laundry basket for three weeks.”
“Your mother also thinks mayonnaise is a food group.”
“She does.”
The humor vanished as quickly as it came, but the room felt fractionally less impossible.
Daniel spread a clean blanket on the bedroom floor. Claire sat against the wall with Lily in her arms while he went to buy a bassinet, diapers, formula, a toothbrush, and three kinds of pain reliever because he could not remember which one the doctor recommended. He returned with a bag of groceries containing bread, eggs, bananas, coffee, and a frozen lasagna they had no interest in eating.
Claire was asleep sitting upright.
Lily was awake against her chest.
Daniel took the baby gently and placed her in the newly assembled bassinet. One leg was uneven. He folded a receipt beneath it until the frame stopped rocking.
When he turned, Claire was watching him.
“You called your squadron?” she asked.
“My supervisor.”
“What did you say?”
“Family emergency.”
“Not the truth.”
“Not yet.”
She nodded as though confirming something.
Daniel sat on the edge of the bed. “Claire.”
“I don’t want to talk anymore tonight.”
“All right.”
“I mean it.”
“I know.”
“Don’t say you know.”
He looked at the floor.
After a while, he removed his boots and lay down on top of the blanket, leaving space between them.
At four, Lily woke.
Both of them sat up at the same moment.
Claire reached the bassinet first. She lifted the baby and began preparing a bottle in the kitchen. Daniel stood in the doorway, unsure whether helping would feel like support or surveillance.
“Can you warm the water?” she asked.
May you like
He did.
The pipes knocked above them.