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Part 7

Mrs. Patel closed her notebook.

“I am concerned about Lady Beatrice’s conduct. I am also concerned that the physical confrontation occurred in front of Oliver.”

“So am I.”

“Do you regret striking her?”

“Yes.”

“Would you do it again?”

The honest answer arrived before the responsible one.

“If she wouldn’t release him?”

Mrs. Patel said nothing.

Clara pressed her lips together.

“I don’t know.”

“That is more useful than a rehearsed no.”

“Will you recommend she have contact?”

“I haven’t completed my assessment.”

“Supervised?”

“I haven’t completed it.”

Clara stood.

Mrs. Patel remained seated.

“Ms. Whitmore, Lady Beatrice’s application is not only about affection for her grandson.”

“What is it about?”

“I hoped you could tell me.”

After she left, Clara found Oliver at the kitchen table drinking hot chocolate from a mug decorated with a faded Christmas tree.

“Did I say it right?” he asked.

Clara sat opposite him.

“There wasn’t a right way.”

“Mrs. Patel said that.”

“She’s right.”

He made a face.

“She asks the same question differently.”

“That’s part of her job.”

“It’s annoying.”

“That may also be part of her job.”

He looked down at the marshmallow dissolving in his drink.

“Are you angry with me?”

“No.”

“Are you angry with Grandmother?”

“Yes.”

“At Daddy?”

Clara answered more slowly.

“Yes.”

“At Mum?”

The question hurt in a different place.

“Sometimes.”

Oliver looked relieved.

“Me too.”

That afternoon, Daniel Mercer sent no further documents.

Clara called an old friend of Eleanor’s instead.

Nina Shaw had lived in the flat below Eleanor during the final months of her life. She now taught art history in Bristol and had stopped answering Clara’s messages after the funeral.

This time, she picked up.

“I saw the photograph,” Nina said.

“I assumed.”

“Did you really hit her?”

“Yes.”

A pause.

“Good.”

Clara closed her eyes.

“No. Not good.”

“You didn’t live with Eleanor at the end.”

“What does that mean?”

“It means Beatrice came to the flat every week and left Eleanor shaking.”

“Why didn’t you tell me?”

“I tried.”

“You told me Eleanor was having trouble with Julian’s family.”

“You said everyone was grieving.”

Clara remembered the conversation in Nina’s hallway after the memorial. Rain on the windows. Nina holding a wineglass she never drank from. Clara answering emails because practical tasks had seemed safer than listening.

“What did Beatrice want?”

“To know what Eleanor had written down.”

“Written where?”

“I don’t know. A diary, maybe. Notes for a solicitor. Eleanor changed the subject whenever I asked.”

“Did she see a psychiatrist named Stephen Vale?”

Nina inhaled sharply.

“What?”

“Did she?”

“I don’t know the name.”

“But something.”

“Beatrice wanted her evaluated.”

Clara stood.

“For what?”

“To prove she was unstable.”

The room tilted without moving.

Nina continued, “Eleanor said Julian’s lawyers had suggested that if she pursued sole custody, they would raise her depression, the medication, the drinking.”

“She barely drank.”

“I know.”

“Was she depressed?”

“She was terrified and exhausted. Sometimes she didn’t get out of bed. If you want a clean answer, I don’t have one.”

Clara walked to the window.

“Why didn’t Eleanor tell me?”

“She did.”

“No.”

“She told you Julian frightened her.”

“She said they were having arguments.”

“She said he put his fist through the wardrobe door.”

Clara remembered. Eleanor laughing afterward, saying Julian had missed the handle in the dark.

“She made it sound—”

“Eleanor made everything sound survivable.”

The words silenced them both.

Nina’s voice softened.

“She was protecting you too, Clara.”

“From what?”

“From having to choose what to do.”

Clara watched Oliver in the small garden, kicking a football against the brick wall. Each impact made a hollow, repetitive thud.

“Did Beatrice know Julian was violent?”

“Yes.”

“How do you know?”

“Because Eleanor told her in front of me.”

Clara gripped the phone.

“When?”

“About five months before Julian died. Beatrice came to the flat. Eleanor showed her photographs of bruises. Beatrice said bruises did not establish context.”

The sentence sounded exactly like the woman Clara had slapped.

“Would you make a statement?”

Nina was silent long enough that Clara knew the answer before it came.

“I can’t.”

“Why?”

“My university department receives Harcourt funding.”

“So?”

“So my contract is renewed annually.”

Clara let out a breath through her nose.

“Of course.”

“Don’t do that.”

“Do what?”

“Make me a coward so you don’t have to admit you ignored her too.”

Clara’s hand tightened around the phone.

“I’m not the one refusing to speak.”

“No. You’re the one who finally acted when forty rich people could watch.”

Nina ended the call.

Clara stood by the window long after the line went dead.

The football continued striking the wall outside.

That evening, Helen came to the house carrying two folders and a packet of supermarket biscuits.

“You look terrible,” she said.

“Thank you.”

“I brought legal advice and digestives.”

“Which is more useful?”

“Today? Unclear.”

They spread documents across the dining table after Oliver went upstairs.

Lady Beatrice’s application relied heavily on Clara’s slap. It also included emails Clara had sent during the months following Eleanor’s death, some angry, some careless.

You do not get to arrive now and pretend you were there.

Oliver is not an heirloom.

Stop sending gifts he has not asked for.

One email, written at two in the morning after Beatrice threatened court proceedings, said: I will do whatever is necessary to keep him away from you.

Helen tapped that sentence.

“They will use this.”

“I meant legally.”

“You did not write legally.”

“What about her letter to Eleanor?”

“Still unauthenticated.”

“Nina witnessed Eleanor showing Beatrice photographs.”

“Will Nina provide a statement?”

“No.”

“Then Nina witnessed nothing we can presently use.”

Clara pushed back from the table.

“So everyone knew, and none of it counts.”

“Knowledge and evidence are not the same.”

“That distinction is why people like Beatrice survive.”

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“That distinction also prevents people from losing children because someone tells a convincing lie.”

Clara stood and walked into the kitchen. She returned with the cold coffee she had forgotten to drink.

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