Part 4

Clara had expected him to rage. Instead, he reached toward the tea tray, lifted the pot, and discovered it empty. An attendant had brought cups but forgotten the tea.
He put it down with unnecessary care.
“You knew she had a child,” he said.
“I knew she had given birth.”
“And you never told me.”
“She begged me not to.”
“She disappeared.”
“Yes.”
“For twenty-two years.”
Beatrice’s chin trembled once. “Yes.”
Edmund crossed the room so slowly that Beatrice did not retreat until he was within two steps of her.
“What did you do?”
Clara’s skin tightened along her arms.
Beatrice looked past Edmund to the windows.
“I kept a promise.”
“To whom?”
She did not answer.
Edmund’s restraint fractured, not into a shout but into something worse.
“To whom?”
Clara flinched.
He heard the sound and stopped.
The room changed around that small reaction. Edmund stepped back from Beatrice, ashamed or at least aware of how his anger looked to someone who did not know him.
Clara took the envelope from her purse.
“I’m opening it.”
Beatrice moved before anyone else.
“No.”
The word was sharp enough to cut through the room.
Clara froze with one finger beneath the ribbon.
Beatrice lowered her voice. “Not here.”
“Why?”
“Because whatever is inside may have been written by someone frightened, ill, manipulated, or mistaken.”
“Which one was she?”
Beatrice’s eyes shone, but she blinked the moisture away.
“All of them, at different times.”
Edmund looked at Clara. “The decision is yours.”
It was the first thing he had said that did not presume authority over her.
Clara untied the faded ribbon.
The knot loosened with surprising ease. She turned the envelope over and studied the dark wax. Pressed into it was not the Ashcombe heron but a small flowering branch.
Margaret had kept the seal intact through four house moves, a leaking roof, a kitchen fire, and Clara’s adolescent talent for searching drawers. The thought made breaking it feel like a betrayal.
Sophie touched her elbow.
Clara slid her finger beneath the flap.
Inside were four folded pages and a photograph.
The photograph showed Margaret Vale at perhaps thirty-five, standing beside another woman outside a stone railway station. Margaret looked alarmed by the camera. The second woman wore a dark coat and held an infant against her shoulder. Her face had been damaged by water, leaving only the line of her jaw and a blur of dark hair.
On the back, in faded ink, were the words: Clara, nine weeks. Saint Orlan Station.
Beatrice sat down.
It was the first unguarded thing she had done.
Clara unfolded the letter.
The handwriting slanted sharply to the right. Several words had been crossed out and rewritten.
“My dearest Clara,” she began, then stopped.
Her own name in a stranger’s hand felt intimate in a way she had not permitted.
Sophie said, “I can read it.”
“No.”
Clara began again.
“My dearest Clara, if Margaret has kept her word, you will be twenty-two when you receive this. I chose that age because I was twenty-two when I mistook fear for obedience and obedience for love.”
Edmund closed his eyes.
Clara continued.
“You were born Eleanor Rose Ashcombe, though I do not know whether that name was kept. You were taken from me on the night of November fourteenth. I was told you had died before morning. Three days later, I learned that was a lie.”
Beatrice gripped the arms of her chair.
“I followed the woman who carried you to Saint Orlan Station. She said she would return you if I signed papers, withdrew an accusation, and left Bellacourt forever. I signed. She did not bring you back.”
Edmund turned toward Beatrice.
She did not look at him.
Clara’s voice weakened, but she kept reading.
“I searched for six months. Your grandfather believed I had left willingly. By the time I understood what he had been told, I had no proof, no money I could safely use, and no reason to believe he would hear me. I wrote to him. The letters were returned unopened.”
“I never received them,” Edmund said.
Beatrice whispered, “Edmund—”
He raised one hand.
Clara read on.
“Margaret found me after I collapsed outside the station chapel. She had been given a baby and money by a man who refused to name himself. The child was you. She would not return you to me until she knew I was safe. She was right not to trust me then. I was ill, desperate, and being followed. We agreed she would keep you while I found a way to expose what had happened.”
The next line was smeared.
“I failed.”
Clara stopped.
The word had been written alone.
She lowered the page.
No one spoke.
At last she forced herself to continue.
“I left Margaret the key because it was the only proof that could not easily be called a forgery. The woman who arranged your removal wore the ruby earrings my mother gave her after my wedding was canceled. She will say she acted to protect me. She may even believe it now. Her name is Beatrice Wren.”
Sophie inhaled through her teeth.
Clara did not look up.
“If I cannot return, do not let anyone tell you that you were unwanted. I sang you the Heron Lullaby every night I had you. You stopped crying before the second verse, except when I sang badly, which was often. I loved the small crease above your left eyebrow and the way you slept with one hand open. I do not know what has become of you. I hope you are kind. I hope you are difficult when kindness is used against you. I hope Margaret teaches you how to laugh without permission.”
Clara’s tears fell onto the paper.
May you like
She wiped them away with her thumb, frightened the ink would run.
“The last thing I ask is unfair. Find out why Beatrice did it before you decide what she is. I once loved her. That is part of the truth too.”