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Part 4

“Like Daniel?”

“Like your grandmother. Like the staff. Like everyone whose job depends on this place.”

“So we protect Vivian because she signs the paychecks?”

“We avoid setting fire to the house while people are still inside.”

Claire’s phone vibrated in her pocket.

For one irrational second, she expected Evan.

It was Daniel.

Can we talk?

She read the message twice.

Miriam saw his name. “Don’t answer tonight.”

“Why?”

“He is hurt.”

“That seems like a reason to answer.”

“He may ask questions you cannot help with.”

“I can tell him what I saw.”

“You already did.”

“He may need to hear it without Vivian interrupting.”

Miriam stepped closer. “Claire, this is not your marriage.”

“No. It’s just my accusation.”

She answered Daniel.

Where are you?

His response arrived immediately.

North gate. Walking.

Claire took her coat from the hall closet and left through the side entrance before her mother could stop her.

The rain had softened to mist. Lamps along the gravel drive formed hazy yellow circles between the bare trees. The estate sat on a rise above the Hudson, its many windows glowing behind Claire as she walked toward the north gate.

She found Daniel beneath the stone arch near the old gatehouse. He had no coat. His gray sweater had darkened across the shoulders, and wet strands of black hair clung to his forehead.

“You’re freezing,” she said.

“I don’t feel it.”

“That doesn’t mean you aren’t.”

She removed her coat. He refused it at first, then accepted when she held it out without speaking. It was too small for him, but he draped it over his shoulders.

They began walking along the interior wall.

For several minutes, neither mentioned the library. Their shoes moved over wet leaves. Somewhere beyond the road, a truck changed gears on the hill.

Daniel took the ring from his pocket.

“I thought I’d lost this once,” he said. “At a hotel in Chicago. I pulled apart the bed, emptied the trash, made the housekeeper come back. It was inside my shoe.”

Claire did not know what to say.

“I was furious with the hotel,” he continued. “I had already decided someone stole it.”

He turned the ring between his thumb and forefinger.

“It’s strange how fast blame arrives when you’re frightened.”

Claire understood that he was not speaking about the hotel.

“She accused me before I opened the window seat,” Claire said. “I don’t know why.”

“I do.”

He stopped near the wall.

“She needed a reason for you to be in the library. If Evan was found, she could say he was meeting you.”

Claire felt the night narrow around them.

“You think that was planned?”

“I think she saw you hear the phone. I think she had a few minutes to decide what story would protect her.”

“She knew I’d open it.”

“No. She thought you’d be frightened enough to leave.”

The accuracy of it stung more than Claire expected.

Daniel looked toward the estate. “Were they together when you first entered?”

“I didn’t see him. Only Vivian.”

“Did you hear voices?”

“No.”

“Perfume? Anything?”

“Daniel.”

“I know.” He rubbed one hand over his face. “I keep asking questions that can’t make the answer different.”

A small drop of water hung from his chin. Claire could not tell whether it was rain.

“Evan was supposed to be in Vermont,” he said. “He sent me a photograph this morning. Said he was meeting a client near Stowe.”

“You said that in the library.”

“I asked him to come tonight. Three weeks ago. He said he couldn’t.”

“Why did you want him here?”

“He’s been avoiding me.”

Daniel started walking again.

They reached a wooden bench near the gatehouse. Claire wiped rain from the seat with her sleeve. Daniel sat but kept the ring in his hand.

“He introduced me to Vivian,” he said. “Did you know that?”

Claire shook her head.

“Evan’s firm was bidding on part of the restoration. He asked me to review a financing proposal. Vivian was chairing the project committee. We met in the city for lunch. Six months later, she and I were married.”

His mouth tightened.

“He made a speech at the wedding about how he had finally done something useful.”

Claire sat beside him.

“I’m sorry.”

“That sounds inadequate, doesn’t it?”

“Most true things do.”

Daniel looked at her, and for a moment his expression softened.

Then he asked, “How long have you known?”

“I didn’t know until tonight.”

“Suspected?”

“No.”

“Your mother?”

“She says she suspected Vivian was lonely.”

Daniel laughed once. It was not a pleasant sound.

“Lonely.”

“I don’t think she knows more.”

“You believe that?”

Claire considered lying to comfort him. The impulse lasted only a second.

“I don’t know.”

Daniel nodded.

He had always been patient with the Mercer family. At gatherings, he cleared plates when the staff were overwhelmed. He remembered which cousins no longer drank and which donors hated public recognition. Claire had once watched him spend forty minutes repairing Eleanor’s jammed printer while Vivian told him he was doing it wrong from the doorway.

Being kind in the Mercer family had made him useful. It had not made him safe.

“Are you going back inside?” Claire asked.

“No.”

“Where will you go?”

“Hotel. Maybe Boston tomorrow.”

“Your father?”

“He’s not doing well.”

“I’m sorry.”

“He has no idea what day it is most of the time. I’m almost relieved.”

Daniel looked down at the ring.

“Vivian said I abandoned her when he got sick. She said I made our marriage feel like an obligation on a list.”

“Did you?”

“Probably.”

Claire waited.

He closed his fist around the ring. “That isn’t permission.”

“No.”

“Thank you for not saying it gently.”

He returned her coat and stood.

“Will you do one thing for me?”

“What?”

“Don’t let them convince you this was your fault.”

Claire looked back at the lit windows of the estate.

May you like

“That may be the first item on tomorrow’s schedule.”

“Then don’t attend.”

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