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“I was trying to stop you from hurting yourself.”

“You broke my rib.”

“You were drinking with medication.”

The words were familiar now. They no longer sounded like explanation. They sounded like furniture he kept rearranging in the same locked room.

“Why did you call?” Emily asked.

“I miss you.”

“No.”

“What?”

“That isn’t why.”

Silence.

Then Jason’s voice changed. The pleading softness disappeared. “You don’t understand what this is doing to my mother.”

Emily almost laughed.

There it was.

“You called because Evelyn wanted you to.”

“She can barely leave the house.”

“She attended a luncheon last week.”

“People scream at her in public.”

“People believed her in public for years.”

“This isn’t who you are.”

Emily looked down at her free hand. It was trembling.

“You’re right,” she said. “It isn’t.”

She ended the call and sent the number to Celia and Mara.

Then she vomited in the kitchen sink.

Afterward she sat on the floor with her back against a cabinet until the shaking stopped. She did not call Victoria immediately. She called Denise, who stayed on the phone while Emily rinsed the sink and made tea she did not drink.

Only later did she call her mother.

“I answered him,” Emily said.

Victoria was silent for one second too long.

“I know I shouldn’t have.”

“What did he say?”

Emily told her.

“Are you safe?”

“Yes.”

“Is the door locked?”

“Yes.”

“Do you want me there?”

The question surprised them both.

Emily leaned her head against the cabinet. “Not tonight.”

“All right.”

“I thought you’d be angry.”

“I am.”

“At me?”

“No.”

Emily closed her eyes.

Victoria added, “I am also trying to understand that those are not the same thing.”

The unauthorized call damaged Jason’s position. His attorney described it as a moment of emotional distress, but the court imposed stricter conditions. Jason surrendered access to additional accounts and devices. The recording of the call, captured because Emily’s phone automatically saved voicemails and call metadata but not the conversation itself, did not contain his words. Emily’s immediate messages to Denise, Celia, and Mara documented what she reported afterward.

Again, the evidence was incomplete.

Again, it mattered.

The divorce moved alongside the criminal case. Jason contested nearly everything: the apartment furniture, Emily’s access to personal photographs, a necklace inherited from her grandmother, even veterinary decisions for a dog named Scout who remained at the Bennett estate.

Scout became the argument that broke Emily one afternoon.

“He doesn’t even like that dog,” she said in Celia’s office. “He complains about the hair. I’m the one who takes him to the vet.”

“His attorney says Scout was a gift from Evelyn to both of you,” Celia said.

“He was a birthday gift to me.”

“Do you have the card?”

“No. Who keeps a card from a dog?”

Victoria opened her mouth.

Emily pointed at her. “Do not say you keep records.”

Victoria closed it.

Celia hid a smile.

They negotiated for three weeks. Jason offered to surrender Scout if Emily withdrew a request for independent review of certain marital accounts.

“No,” Emily said.

Victoria agreed too quickly.

Emily glanced at her.

“Sorry,” Victoria said.

Celia leaned back. “They are testing what you value and whether it can be priced.”

“Everything can be priced to them,” Emily said.

“Then do not let them set the currency.”

Emily hated the sentence because it sounded like something from a courtroom television show. She also understood it.

She refused the offer.

Two days later, a kennel employee contacted Celia after seeing news reports. Jason had boarded Scout under a different name shortly after the assault and had not visited. Emily obtained temporary possession while ownership was disputed.

Scout arrived at the apartment overweight, anxious, and smelling strongly of industrial shampoo. He barked at Victoria for six straight minutes.

“He remembers me,” Victoria said.

“He remembers you refused him turkey at Thanksgiving.”

“It was seasoned.”

“He holds grudges.”

“So do I.”

Scout eventually accepted a piece of unseasoned chicken and slept with his head on Emily’s foot.

The criminal case approached a hearing at which Emily would be required to testify. Jason’s attorneys sought to challenge her memory, medication use, alcohol consumption, and access to foundation records. Celia and prosecutors prepared her for hostile questions.

Preparation felt like being dismantled politely.

Had she ever raised her voice at Jason?

Yes.

Had she thrown objects during arguments?

A coffee mug once, at the wall, two years earlier.

Had she ever threatened to ruin his family?

She had said she would expose the invoices.

Had she consumed alcohol that evening?

Yes.

Had she taken prescribed anxiety medication that day?

Yes.

Had she omitted details in her first hospital interview?

Yes.

Had she scratched Jason?

Yes.

Each truthful answer seemed to place a tool in someone else’s hand.

After one session, Emily sat in a courthouse stairwell and cried with her face turned toward the concrete wall.

Victoria found her there.

“I can’t do this,” Emily said.

Victoria sat two steps below, leaving space between them.

“You don’t have to decide tonight.”

“The hearing is Monday.”

“Then you have until Monday.”

“If I don’t testify, they may reduce everything.”

“Yes.”

“If I do, they’ll make me sound insane.”

“They may try.”

“What would you do?”

Victoria looked at the gray railing. A piece of old gum had hardened beneath it.

“The answer I want to give is that I would testify.”

Emily waited.

“But I have not lived your marriage,” Victoria continued. “I have not had my injuries discussed by strangers. I have not had my worst decisions organized into questions. So I don’t know what I would do.”

“You always know.”

“No. I always answer.”

Emily wiped her face with the sleeve of her coat.

May you like

Victoria leaned forward, forearms resting on her knees. “The answer is not the same thing as knowing.”

They sat in the stairwell while footsteps echoed on floors above them. Someone opened a door, saw them, and quietly chose another route.

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