Chương 5
The plastic chair squeaked. For some reason the sound embarrassed him.
“I found the camera footage.”
Her eyelids lowered.
“I saw them take the formula. I saw Mark at the thermostat.”
“I told him not to.”
“You knew?”
“I was sitting on the floor with Liam. Your mother said I was being theatrical.”
David’s hand tightened over hers.
“Tell me what happened.”
“Not now.”
“I need to know.”
“I can’t do this while you’re looking at me like that.”
“Like what?”
“Like you’re trying to decide whether to believe me.”
He pulled back as if burned.
“That’s not what I’m doing.”
“It is.”
“I believe the video.”
“The video.”
“Maya, I didn’t mean—”
“You believe the part you can see.”
A monitor sounded nearby. A nurse crossed behind the curtain without looking in.
David lowered his voice.
“You said you called me. There were no calls.”
“Your mother took my phone yesterday afternoon because she said I needed sleep. When I got it back, your number went straight to voicemail. She said you were in negotiations and had asked not to be disturbed.”
“I never said that.”
“I know that now.”
“You believed her?”
Maya turned her face toward the wall.
The question sat between them, ugly and useless.
David rubbed his forehead.
“I’m sorry.”
“She had your passcode.”
“How?”
“You gave it to her.”
He remembered. Three years earlier, after his father’s funeral, Eleanor had needed to retrieve an address from his phone while he drove. She had retained numbers the way other people retained grudges.
“She told me you thought I was failing,” Maya said. “She said you had called her because you didn’t know how to say it to me.”
“That’s insane.”
“She knew things.”
“What things?”
“That I wasn’t making enough milk. That I cried in the shower. That I couldn’t stand up without help. That I was afraid Liam didn’t know me.”
“You told me those things.”
“Exactly.”
The word landed quietly.
David looked down at their joined hands.
He had called his mother from London because he was worried. He had told her Maya was struggling because he believed concern became useful only when shared with someone capable. Eleanor had listened with grave attention, asked precise questions, and promised that Maya would not be alone.
He had handed his wife’s most fragile thoughts to the one person who knew how to turn intimacy into leverage.
“I thought she was helping,” he said.
Maya gave a small, exhausted laugh.
“You always think she’s helping.”
The curtain moved, and an obstetric resident entered with consent forms. Maya needed a procedure. Not major surgery, the resident explained, but they would give medication, examine the wound more thoroughly, remove infected material, and possibly place a temporary dressing. They needed to act soon.
David stood.
“Will I be there?”
“No,” the resident said.
Maya’s fingers closed around his.
“Stay until they take me.”
“I’m staying.”
The resident reviewed risks. Maya asked questions slowly, stopping twice when pain tightened her face. David listened. When the pen came, her hand shook too hard to sign. He steadied the clipboard, not her wrist.
Afterward, while they waited, she said, “I did tell them to go.”
David looked at her.
“Your mother kept saying I was ungrateful. Chloe said she had taken time off work, even though she was answering emails all day and complaining about the Wi-Fi. Mark kept opening the windows because he said the apartment smelled like diapers.”
“The windows?”
“Only for a few minutes. Until I yelled.”
“What did you say when you told them to go?”
“I said if they hated being there so much, they should leave.”
“And they did.”
“Not right away. Eleanor waited until I fell asleep. When I woke up, the refrigerator was empty.”
“Why didn’t you call the building staff?”
“My phone was at four percent. The charger was gone.”
“There are chargers in my desk.”
“Your office door was locked.”
David frowned. “I don’t lock that door.”
“She did.”
“With what key?”
“The one you gave her.”
He breathed through his nose.
“Maya, why didn’t you ask a neighbor?”
Her face changed.
It was subtle. Her mouth flattened; her eyes went still.
“I did.”
“Who?”
“Mrs. Rosen across the hall.”
“The woman with the champagne glass?”
“She brought two bottles of water and half a loaf of bread. Then Eleanor came back.”
“Came back?”
“She forgot her passport.”
This was the first fact that did not fit the security clips he had watched.
“What happened?”
“Mrs. Rosen was in the kitchen. Your mother told her I had postpartum psychosis and wasn’t safe around the baby. She said the family was arranging medical care and asked her not to interfere.”
David sat very still.
“What did Mrs. Rosen do?”
“She left.”
The answer held no accusation, which made it worse.
“Eleanor took the bread,” Maya said. “She said I might choke if I ate while lying down.”
“Why isn’t that on the camera?”
“She went through the service entrance.”
There was a second camera covering the service hallway. David had forgotten about it because the application displayed only the primary feed by default.
He reached for his phone.
Maya caught his sleeve.
“Not now.”
“I need to save it before something overwrites.”
“Not in front of me.”
He stopped.
Her eyes were wet, but no tears fell.
“You get that look,” she said. “Like everything becomes evidence and I disappear.”
David put the phone facedown on the chair.
“All right.”
They waited without speaking. Somewhere in the hospital, people cheered. Midnight had arrived. A few seconds later, fireworks thickened over the city, muffled by brick and glass.
Maya looked toward the sound.
“Happy New Year,” she said.
David bowed his head over her hand.
“I’m sorry.”
“That’s not the same thing.”
“I know.”
The orderlies came for her.
Before they rolled the stretcher away, Maya said, “Don’t let your mother see Liam.”
“I won’t.”
“Even if she cries.”
May you like
“She won’t.”
Maya’s eyes closed.