Chương 5

Richard did.
“Because by then he understood that staying away was the decent thing.”
Damian looked at Claire.
“I believed you wanted me gone.”
“For six years?”
“No.”
The answer was quiet.
Claire waited.
Damian exhaled.
“For about a year, I believed him completely.”
“And after that?”
“I started wondering.”
“Wondering.”
“Yes.”
“You did nothing?”
“I did things.”
“What things?”
“I looked you up. You had disappeared from everything public. Your old number was disconnected. Your apartment was sold. Your email bounced.”
“I worked for Dad’s company.”
“I know now.”
“You could have come to the house.”
“I did.”
Richard looked sharply at him.
Claire stared.
“When?”
“Fourteen months after the crash.”
Richard’s face changed.
“You never told me that.”
“No.”
“What happened?” Claire asked.
Damian rubbed one hand across the back of his neck.
“The guard at the gate called inside.”
Richard said, “That property had security protocols.”
Damian ignored him.
“Ten minutes later your father came down.”
Claire’s stomach tightened.
“What did he say?”
“He showed me a picture.”
Richard looked away.
“What picture?”
“Your engagement announcement.”
Claire stared at Evan.
Evan shook his head.
“We weren’t together then.”
Damian looked confused.
“It wasn’t him.”
Claire understood before anyone explained.
“Oh.”
Richard said nothing.
The engagement had lasted six weeks.
Nathan Cole, a hedge-fund attorney Richard liked because Nathan owned no motorcycles, had proposed when Lily was ten months old.
Claire had said yes because saying no would have required feeling something.
She ended it after finding herself crying in a grocery-store parking lot because Nathan bought the wrong brand of coffee and Damian had once made fun of that brand.
She had never told Nathan the reason.
Richard had kept the photograph from the newspaper’s society section.
Damian continued.
“He said you were engaged. He said Lily was your fiancé’s daughter.”
Claire felt ill.
“You believed that?”
“I believed enough of it.”
“You didn’t check her age?”
“I didn’t know her name.”
“Her picture?”
“There wasn’t a kid in the announcement.”
Claire looked at Richard.
“You told him Lily was Nathan’s daughter.”
“I told him you had a family.”
“You invented a father for my child.”
“I prevented a recovering addict from detonating your life.”
Damian’s voice sharpened for the first time.
“You prevented me from meeting my daughter.”
Richard turned on him.
“You had no right to walk into her life because biology gave you permission.”
“I had more right than you had to erase me.”
“You were unstable.”
“I was sober.”
“For how long?”
“Fourteen months.”
“Exactly.”
Damian stepped closer.
“Six years now.”
Richard hesitated.
Damian saw it.
“So you checked.”
Claire looked from one man to the other.
“What does that mean?”
Damian’s eyes remained on Richard.
“He knew.”
“Knew what?”
“That I stayed sober.”
Richard said, “I made inquiries.”
“When?”
No answer.
“Dad.”
Richard’s shoulders lowered slightly.
“Periodically.”
Claire sat again.
Something about that hurt differently.
A terrible decision made during a medical crisis could be explained by fear.
A lie maintained for six years required maintenance.
Calls.
Information.
Choices made over and over.
“You kept track of him.”
“I needed to know whether he posed a risk.”
“To whom?”
“To you. To Lily.”
“You knew her name,” Damian said.
Richard looked at him.
“Of course I knew my granddaughter’s name.”
“You just said you were protecting her from me. How did you know I wasn’t coming?”
Silence.
Damian nodded.
“You had me watched.”
Claire stared.
Richard rubbed his cuff.
“Not continuously.”
Megan returned with their mother.
Helen Bennett looked older than she had during photographs that afternoon.
Not older in the ordinary way. Her makeup was intact, her blond-gray hair perfectly arranged, and her pale blue dress fit exactly as it had during fittings.
But fear made her look seventy.
She saw Damian.
Her hand went to the doorway.
“Oh.”
Damian’s face softened.
“Hello, Helen.”
Helen began to cry.
Richard looked furious.
That told Claire almost everything.
“How long?” Claire asked her mother.
Helen covered her mouth.
“How long did you know?”
“Claire—”
“How long?”
Helen looked at Richard.
“Four years.”
Claire closed her eyes.
Megan swore under her breath.
Evan moved away from everyone and stood by the table, staring at the champagne tower.
Claire opened her eyes.
“Four years.”
Helen nodded.
“How?”
“I found a report.”
“What report?”
“A background report your father had ordered.”
Richard stood.
“Helen.”
“No.”
Helen’s voice was weak but firm.
“No, Richard. We did this your way.”
Richard stared at his wife.
She sat next to Claire.
Her hands smelled faintly of the rose lotion she had used since Claire was a child.
“I found it in his office,” Helen said. “Damian’s address, his employment, his sobriety program, everything.”
Claire looked at Damian.
He stared at Richard.
“You had my meetings tracked?”
“Public records and licensed investigators,” Richard said. “Nothing illegal.”
Damian gave him a long look.
“That sentence tells me exactly what kind of investigator you hired.”
Claire turned back to her mother.
“You knew he was alive and you said nothing.”
Helen’s eyes filled.
“I was afraid.”
“Of Dad?”
“Of everything.”
“That’s not enough.”
“I know.”
“Did you know he was Lily’s father?”
“Yes.”
Claire stood.
She needed space from her mother.
“You watched her ask me why her father was dead.”
Helen flinched.
“You watched her bring drawings to the cemetery.”
“I know.”
“There wasn’t even anyone in that grave.”
The family had purchased a memorial plot after Damian’s supposed death. There was no coffin, only a small granite marker because Richard said the remains had been cremated before the identity problem could be resolved.
Claire had visited it every October.
Lily had left a paper turkey there when she was four.
Helen’s face crumpled.
“I know.”
Claire walked away.
She stopped near the abandoned cake.
Seven tiers of white fondant.
Sugar magnolias.
Their initials in gold.
C and E.
May you like
A pastry chef had spent three days constructing something nobody could possibly eat now without feeling obscene.
Claire touched the edge of the tablecloth.