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Chương 17

He received eleven years.

With time served, cooperation credits, and good behavior, he might be released earlier. No one promised when.

Before he was transferred, he was permitted one afternoon visit in a secured room at the detention center.

Luca arrived first.

Emma entered behind him wearing a yellow coat and carrying the stained Armani shirt in a paper bag. She was five now, taller, her curls tied into two uneven bunches. Sophia followed in a dark green dress, her face thinner than Alessandro remembered.

For a moment no one moved.

Then Emma ran to him.

A guard stepped forward.

Sophia said, “It’s all right.”

Alessandro knelt and caught the child. She struck his chest with enough force to rock him backward.

“You live here?”

“For now.”

“Bad house.”

“Yes.”

“No garden.”

“No.”

She pulled away and examined his plain shirt, his unpolished shoes, the absence of his watch.

“You not boss?”

“Not anymore.”

“Luca boss?”

Luca coughed. “Absolutely not.”

Emma seemed relieved.

Sophia sat at the metal table. Alessandro took the chair opposite her while Emma unpacked crayons.

“You look well,” he said.

“So do you.”

“That is a generous lie.”

“I have improved my social skills.”

He looked at her hands. No ring. No nervous movement. She looked steadier than she had in the cottage, though caution remained.

“How is Bologna?”

“Loud. Expensive. Emma likes the park.”

“My training ends in June. The hospital offered me a permanent position after that.”

“That’s good.”

“Yes.”

They fell silent.

Emma drew between them. Luca spoke quietly with the guard near the door.

“I read the statement you submitted at sentencing,” Sophia said.

“I didn’t expect you to.”

“I wanted to know whether you used my daughter again.”

He accepted the accusation.

“Did I?”

“No.”

“I thought about mentioning the shirt.”

“I assumed.”

“I removed it.”

“Why?”

“Because the story was not about the moment I became decent.”

Sophia’s gaze held his.

“Did you become decent?”

“No.”

Emma looked up. “What decent?”

“Kind,” Sophia said.

“I kind,” Emma announced.

“You are sometimes,” Sophia replied.

Emma accepted this and returned to coloring.

Alessandro folded his hands on the table.

“I don’t know what I became,” he said.

“That may take longer than a court case.”

“Yes.”

Sophia glanced toward the guard.

“I was angry when you investigated Paolo’s accounts after I told you not to.”

“I know.”

“I am still angry.”

“I know.”

“It helped his family reopen the construction case.”

“I heard.”

“That does not make what you did respectful.”

“No.”

She seemed almost disappointed that he did not defend himself.

“Do you regret calling the police?” she asked.

“Sometimes.”

Sophia’s eyebrows lifted.

“I regret what happened to workers,” he said. “I regret exposing you before you were prepared. I regret that Elena lost her children. I regret not finding a way to separate the companies sooner.”

“That is not the same question.”

“No.”

He looked through the narrow window in the door. The corridor beyond was painted a pale institutional yellow.

“I don’t regret stopping.”

Sophia nodded once.

Emma pushed a drawing toward him.

It showed three figures beside a stone basin. One small, one medium, one enormous. Blue lines covered the floor. A brown mark floated near the enormous figure’s chest.

“The shirt,” she explained.

Alessandro opened the paper bag.

The Armani shirt had been washed so many times the fabric had softened. The coffee stain remained faintly visible at the collar.

“I keep try,” Emma said.

“You washed it again?”

“Mama help little.”

Sophia looked away.

Alessandro ran his thumb across the stain.

“It still didn’t come out,” Emma said.

“No.”

Her face tightened with the old worry.

He put down the shirt.

“Emma.”

She looked at him.

“The first day I found you, you asked whether you did a good job.”

“I remember.”

He doubted she did, but continued.

“I did not answer.”

“You say stain stay.”

“That was later.”

She waited.

Alessandro glanced at Sophia. She watched without rescuing him.

“You did a brave thing because you loved your mother,” he said. “But it was work a child should never have needed to do. The adults failed. Not you.”

Emma frowned.

“Did I do good?”

He smiled, though his eyes burned.

“You loved her well.”

She considered the answer with the seriousness she once gave sugar packets.

Then she nodded.

“I do.”

“Yes.”

She climbed into Sophia’s lap, suddenly finished with the conversation.

The visit lasted another forty minutes.

They talked about peas, school, Luca’s inability to draw cats, and the hospital where Sophia would work. Emma complained that Bologna rain was “too sideways.” Luca claimed all rain was badly organized.

No one discussed forgiveness.

At the end, the guard opened the door.

Emma hugged Alessandro again. Sophia waited until Luca had taken the child into the corridor.

“I don’t know what relationship we are supposed to have,” she said.

“Neither do I.”

“I will not bring Emma often.”

“I understand.”

“She loves you.”

The words struck deeper than blame.

“She shouldn’t.”

“That is not how children work.”

“No.”

Sophia touched the paper bag containing the shirt.

“She wanted you to have it.”

“I can’t keep expensive clothing here.”

“It is evidence returned to its owner. The prison approved it.”

“Of course you checked.”

“I enjoy documentation now.”

He almost laughed.

Sophia moved toward the door, then stopped.

“My mother was wrong about one thing,” she said.

“What?”

“She believed she had to wait for you to become a man who could hear without ordering someone to disappear.”

Alessandro looked at her.

“You were never going to become that man while everyone remained quiet.”

She left before he could answer.

In his cell that evening, Alessandro unfolded the shirt across his bunk.

The garment belonged to another life. Tailored collars, private dinners, men waiting outside doors. It smelled faintly of Sophia’s soap and the paper bag Emma had carried against her coat.

He examined the stain beneath the white light.

It had faded over the years, but the outline remained. Brown at the center, pale at the edges, set into the fibers by time and heat and every failed attempt to force it clean.

From the corridor came the ordinary sounds of confinement: keys, footsteps, a television playing too loudly, someone arguing over a deck of cards.

Alessandro filled the small plastic basin beneath his sink with cold water.

He worked soap gently into the collar, the way Sophia had shown him.

Not to erase the stain. He no longer believed effort guaranteed erasure.

He washed the shirt because it was dirty.

When he finished, he hung it beside the narrow window.

Water gathered at the lowest edge of the fabric and fell into the basin, one drop at a time.

Without meaning to, Alessandro began humming.

May you like

The melody was quiet.

It did not need to be hidden.

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