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Nathan corrected himself.
“No.”
His voice became strained.
“I mean, we need to continue until this is sorted out.”
Margaret almost laughed.
Not because anything was funny.
Because the sentence revealed exactly where his mind was.
Not Emily.
Not Sophie.
Not the truth.
The service.
The appearance.
The control.
The detective remained on the phone.
Margaret could hear voices in the background.
Movement.
Professional calm.
The kind of calm she used to hear from emergency rooms when everyone knew a situation was serious.
“Nobody leaves,” Margaret said.
Nathan stared at her.
“You don’t get to order people around.”
“No.”
She looked at Sophie.
“But she does get to be heard.”
The statement landed differently.
Nathan had prepared for an argument with Margaret.
He had not prepared for Sophie becoming the center of the room.
The little girl who had been invisible beside the adults was suddenly the only person nobody could dismiss.
A woman from the second row stood slowly.
“Is Sophie saying she saw something?”
Nobody answered immediately.
That hesitation mattered.
Because it showed the room was no longer united.
Nathan noticed it too.
“She is a child,” he said.
The woman looked at him.
“She’s your child.”
Nathan’s face tightened.
A few minutes earlier, those words would have sounded supportive.
Now they sounded like a reminder.
The chapel door opened briefly as an employee stepped outside to make a call.
Cold air entered the room.
Margaret felt it against her face.
For a second, she remembered another morning years earlier when Emily had been five years old and had fallen from a bicycle.
Emily had refused stitches because she was afraid of the needle.
Margaret had held her hand and told her that being scared did not mean she was weak.
It meant she was paying attention.
Emily had looked at her and asked if adults got scared too.
Margaret had lied.
She had said no.
Now, standing beside her daughter’s coffin, she wished she had told the truth.
“Yes,” she would have said.
“Adults get scared all the time.”
“We just learn what we do next.”
Nathan walked closer again.
This time slower.
Careful.
“Margaret.”
She looked at him.
“I need to talk to you privately.”
“No.”
“Please.”
The word sounded unfamiliar coming from him.
Not sincere.
Desperate.
“There are things you don’t understand.”
Margaret watched his face.
For the first time, she saw uncertainty.
Not grief.
Not sadness.
Fear.
“What don’t I understand?”
Nathan opened his mouth.
Nothing came out.
That silence answered more than any confession could have.
The phone in Margaret’s hand remained connected.
Detective Clooney heard everything.
And Nathan finally seemed to realize that whatever story he had planned to tell was no longer his story alone.
Nathan finally seemed to realize that whatever story he had planned to tell was no longer his story alone.
He looked at the phone in Margaret’s hand and then at the people around him.
The room that had belonged to him ten minutes earlier now felt unfamiliar.
He had walked into the funeral home believing the day would follow a script.
People would cry.
People would comfort him.
People would accept what they were told.
Instead, his carefully arranged version of events had cracked open in front of everyone.
“I need to explain something,” Nathan said.
Nobody answered.
The absence of a response made him uncomfortable.
He was used to being the person who filled silence.
Margaret had learned that silence could be stronger.
The detective’s voice came through the phone.
“Mrs. Collins, stay where you are and do not move anything else.”
Margaret nodded.
“I understand.”
Nathan heard the instruction.
His eyes moved toward Emily’s coffin.
A small movement.
Almost invisible.
But Margaret saw his attention shift.
“What were you looking for?” she asked.
Nathan looked back at her.
“What?”
“When you looked at the coffin.”
“I wasn’t.”
“You were.”
His expression hardened.
“You’re imagining things.”
The sentence was familiar.
Too familiar.
Margaret felt something cold settle in her chest.
Not fear.
Recognition.
She had heard Emily say those same words years earlier after an argument.
You’re imagining things, Mom.
Nathan had not always been cruel.
That was what made it complicated.
The worst people were not always terrible every second of every day.
They could make breakfast.
They could tell jokes.
They could remember birthdays.
They could hold doors open for strangers.
They could also hurt people when nobody was watching.
Sophie tugged gently on Margaret’s sleeve.
“Grandma.”
Margaret looked down.
“Did Mom know?”
The question almost broke her.
“What do you mean?”
“Did Mom know she was going to die?”
The chapel seemed to shrink around them.
Margaret swallowed.
“No, sweetheart.”
Sophie looked at Emily.
“She told me not to be scared.”
Margaret felt tears burning behind her eyes.
“When did she tell you that?”
“The night before.”
Nathan’s face changed.
Only slightly.
But enough.
Margaret turned toward him.
“The night before she died?”
Nathan stepped forward.
“She was sick.”
Margaret looked at him.
“You said it was sudden.”
“It was.”
“Then why was she telling Sophie not to be scared?”
Nathan opened his mouth.
Closed it.
The funeral director quietly walked away from the doorway.
Not leaving.
Just creating distance.
A few guests began whispering again.
This time, nobody tried to hide it.
Nathan noticed.
“Everyone needs to calm down.”
The statement sounded almost automatic.
Margaret remembered Emily once telling her something about him.
Nathan hates when he can’t control the room.
At the time, she had laughed.
She had thought it was a marriage complaint.
Now she wondered how many warnings she had ignored because they arrived disguised as ordinary problems.
The detective asked Margaret if Emily’s personal belongings were still with the family.
Margaret looked at Nathan.
“I don’t know.”
Nathan answered too quickly.
“They are at home.”
The detective heard him.
Margaret heard him.
Everyone nearby heard him.
“Which belongings?” Margaret asked.
Nathan hesitated.
“Her things.”
“That’s not an answer.”
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His patience started disappearing.
“Her clothes, her phone, her jewelry.”
