Chương 8
Dana did not argue.
"I know."
"Then why are you telling me like it does?"
"Because I don't know what it means yet."
That answer should have frustrated me.
Instead, it reminded me of something important.
Nobody knew what was happening.
Not me.
Not Dana.
Not the police.
Not even the people living inside the house where everything began.
I looked through the hallway window toward the parking lot.
Cars moved in and out.
People walked toward appointments.
A man carried flowers.
A woman balanced a toddler on her hip while searching through her purse.
Everyone had somewhere to be.
Everyone had their own emergency.
I looked back at Dana.
"What did they find?"
She hesitated.
"Rachel."
"What?"
"I don't want to tell you something incomplete."
"Tell me what you know."
Dana looked down.
"They found evidence in his vehicle."
My chest tightened.
"What evidence?"
"A blanket."
The word hit me harder than I expected.
I thought about flour.
The sink.
The colander.
The missing sock.
"Was it the baby's blanket?"
"I don't know."
The uncertainty was unbearable.
I walked away from the office and called Mark.
Straight to voicemail.
I called again.
Same thing.
Then I called Claire.
She answered on the second ring.
"Where are you?"
Her voice was sharp.
Not afraid.
Not confused.
Demanding.
"At the hospital."
"Is he okay?"
The question caught me.
It was the first thing she asked.
Not about herself.
Not about the police.
The baby.
"He's okay."
She exhaled.
A shaky sound came through the phone.
"Thank God."
I closed my eyes.
I hated how complicated everything had become.
"Claire."
"Did they arrest Mark?"
The question stopped me.
"How did you know?"
Silence.
A long one.
"Claire."
"Rachel, listen to me."
"No."
My voice surprised both of us.
"No, you listen to me."
The hallway suddenly felt too bright.
"You told me someone wanted us to think it was you."
"Yes."
"Did you know it was Mark?"
"No."
The answer came immediately.
Too quickly to feel rehearsed.
"I suspected something was wrong."
"What does that mean?"
She did not answer.
"Claire."
"I found out he had been talking to someone."
"Who?"
"I don't know."
"You don't know anything."
The words came out harsher than I intended.
But I was exhausted.
I was tired of people handing me pieces of the truth and expecting me to assemble a life from them.
Claire was quiet.
Then she said something I did not expect.
"I saw Mark outside the nursery."
I stopped walking.
"When?"
"The night before."
"The night before you hit me?"
"Yes."
My hand tightened around the phone.
"Why didn't you tell anyone?"
"Because I thought it was about the court case."
"And then?"
"And then I found the note."
I looked toward the hospital room.
"You thought he wrote it."
"I didn't know."
"Claire."
Her voice softened.
"I have spent months being afraid of losing that baby."
The honesty made me uncomfortable.
Because it sounded real.
Not like an excuse.
Like pain.
"I thought if I admitted I was wrong about Mark, I would have to admit I was wrong about everything."
I did not respond.
Because I understood that sentence.
Not the fear.
Not the choices.
But the way people built walls around the things they could not bear to question.
"I need to see you," I said.
"Where?"
"The hospital."
She was quiet.
"Okay."
When I ended the call, Dana was still standing near the office door.
"You called Claire."
I nodded.
"She said Mark was outside the nursery."
Dana looked thoughtful.
"That is important information."
"I don't know what is important anymore."
Dana gave a small, tired smile.
"That might be the most honest thing anyone has said today."
Claire arrived twenty minutes later.
She looked different without the confidence she usually carried.
Her hair was pulled back.
Her jacket was wrinkled.
She looked like someone who had stopped pretending she was in control.
Dana asked her questions.
Not like an accusation.
Like someone building a timeline.
Where was Mark?
When did she last see him?
Who had access to the house?
Claire answered slowly.
Sometimes she stopped.
Sometimes she corrected herself.
Once, she said, "I don't remember."
And I believed her.
That was strange.
A day earlier, I would have thought every uncertainty from Claire was another lie.
Now I was starting to understand something harder.
Sometimes people were not hiding the truth.
Sometimes they were hiding from it.
After Dana left to speak with law enforcement, Claire sat beside me.
The hospital room was quiet.
The baby slept.
For a few minutes, neither of us spoke.
Then Claire said, "You hate me."
I looked at her.
"I don't know what I feel."
She nodded.
"Fair."
That word sounded strange coming from her.
"I should have told you about the hearing."
"Yes."
"I should have asked for help."
"Yes."
She looked at the baby.
"I should have known I was becoming someone I didn't recognize."
I did not answer.
Because that was the hardest thing about people.
Sometimes they knew.
Sometimes they did not.
Sometimes they knew only after they crossed the line.
The door opened.
A detective stepped inside.
He introduced himself as Detective Alvarez.
His expression was serious but not cold.
"Rachel, Claire, I need to update you."
Claire stood.
"What about Mark?"
Detective Alvarez looked between us.
"He is being questioned."
"Is he responsible?"
The detective did not answer immediately.
That pause told me more than a quick answer would have.
"We found some concerning things."
Claire sat down again.
"What things?"
"A search history."
My stomach tightened.
"About what?"
"About custody disputes."
That seemed almost too ordinary.
Then he continued.
"And about making someone appear unstable."
Claire went still.
"What?"
Detective Alvarez looked at her.
"He searched for information about false allegations."
The room became silent.
My eyes moved toward Claire.
She looked sick.
Not relieved.
Not satisfied.
Sick.
"Did he hurt the baby?" she whispered.
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The detective did not answer directly.
"We are investigating."
