Chương 2

Maybe a coffee shop sounded less serious.
Maybe he needed a version of me that matched the dress.
"How romantic," Natasha said.
Clarissa gave a tired little sigh.
"Brandon has always collected projects."
The word landed harder than I expected.
For eight months, he had eaten pancakes at the tiny table in my apartment, complained about his family's obsession with appearances, and told me he liked that I never asked what anything cost.
He had once spent forty minutes helping me assemble a crooked bookshelf because neither of us wanted to read the instructions.
I had believed those evenings.
Standing beneath the chandelier, I wondered if he had simply enjoyed visiting a life where nobody expected anything from him.
Clarissa pinched the fabric at my waist.
"What is this made of?"
I stepped back.
"Don't touch me."
"Oh, please."
She caught a fold of the skirt between two fingers.
"Polyester?"
"Mom, stop."
This time Brandon sounded genuinely uncomfortable.
Unfortunately, uncomfortable was still not brave.
Natasha reached for my sleeve.
I moved away from her.
"Seriously."
She laughed.
"I was just checking."
"Then don't."
Clarissa's face changed.
Not dramatically.
It was smaller than that.
A tightening around the mouth.
The offended disbelief of someone unaccustomed to being denied even trivial access to another person's body.
"You don't speak to my daughter like that."
"Your daughter grabbed me."
"She touched your sleeve."
"Yes."
"Oh, for God's sake."
Clarissa reached again.
I caught her wrist before she could touch my waist.
The room went strangely still.
Her skin felt cool beneath my fingers.
I released her immediately.
"Don't touch me again."
Someone whispered, "Jesus."
Brandon stepped between us halfway, then stopped as if uncertain which direction would be less expensive for him socially.
Clarissa stared at me.
"You little tramp."
The insult was so old-fashioned that under different circumstances I might have laughed.
Then Natasha seized my sleeve.
I jerked back.
The seam popped near my shoulder.
"Natasha," Brandon snapped.
Clarissa grabbed the skirt.
I do not know whether she meant to pull me closer or tear the dress.
I only know that I twisted away and heard the fabric split with a long, ugly sound from thigh to hip.
Cold air touched my skin.
For one frozen second, nobody moved.
Then phones rose.
Not one or two.
Dozens.
The instinct was almost synchronized.
People who would later insist they had been horrified moved closer for better angles.
I clutched the torn fabric closed with both hands.
Jessica laughed nervously into her screen.
"Oh my God, you guys."
"Turn that off," I said.
She did not.
A man near the bar muttered, "Gold digger picked the wrong family."
I had never seen him before.
That was somehow the part that made my stomach turn.
He knew nothing about me and still seemed relieved to have found a category that required no further thought.
Clarissa stood perfectly straight.
"This is what happens when people forget their place."
I looked at Brandon.
"Say something."
His face had gone pale.
"Emma, maybe we should just go."
"We?"
He swallowed.
"Yeah."
"Now you want to go."
"Don't do this here."
The sentence was so absurd that I stared at him.
Behind him, Natasha was whispering fiercely at Jessica to keep filming.
Clarissa stepped forward.
"You've embarrassed my son enough."
I felt the heat arrive before I understood she had raised her hand.
Her palm struck my cheek with a flat crack.
The ballroom inhaled.
Pain flared along my jaw.
For one second, my vision seemed too bright.
I tasted blood where my teeth had caught the inside of my lip.
Nobody touched me.
Nobody touched her either.
A hotel employee near the wall brought one hand to his earpiece but remained still.
Brandon stood less than three feet away.
He looked at his mother.
Then at me.
Then at the floor.
Whatever had been left between us ended there without sound.
I did not cry.
That surprised me.
My hands were shaking, but my eyes stayed dry.
I opened my handbag while Clarissa told someone to call security.
Inside were my wallet, lipstick, a folded grocery receipt, two pens, and the phone I had spent two years trying not to use as a lifeline.
I had chosen my mother's surname after she died.
Cooper.
It had been hers before she married my father, and almost nobody connected Emma Cooper with William Harrison unless they already knew the answer.
For two years, I had rented a one-bedroom apartment, driven a six-year-old sedan, taken design contracts I actually wanted, and avoided every photograph that might put me back into business magazines beside a man whose name could make rooms rearrange themselves.
My father had hated the experiment.
He called it hiding.
I called it breathing.
Howard Greene, his longtime secretary, called it "a complicated way to learn that people are disappointing."
That afternoon, Howard had called before the gala.
"Your location is on?"
"No."
"Emma."
"I'm twenty-nine."
"That is not an answer."
"It's the answer you're getting."
He had sighed.
"People become dangerous when they think there are no consequences."
I had accused him of being dramatic.
Now, with my cheek burning and strangers recording me in a torn dress, I found his name and typed three words.
Come get me.
The reply appeared almost immediately.
On my way.
Clarissa folded her arms.
"Security will escort you out."
I looked at Brandon.
He finally met my eyes.
"Emma, I'm sorry."
I almost asked which part.
Instead, I said, "Don't."
The floor trembled faintly beneath my heels.
At first I thought it was bass from the sound system.
Then the champagne in nearby glasses began to ripple.
A low mechanical thunder rolled over the ballroom ceiling.
Guests turned toward the windows.
The noise grew until conversation disappeared beneath rotor blades.
Someone near the terrace shouted that a helicopter was landing on the roof.
Clarissa's irritation gave way to confusion.
May you like
The event manager pressed two fingers to his earpiece.
His expression changed.