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""The thirtieth blow landed with less force than the first, but by then I had stopped feeling the difference.
My son stood over me in his own dining room, breathing hard through his nose, while twenty people pretended they had suddenly become fascinated by plates, wineglasses, and the polished walnut floor.
Blood slid from the corner of my mouth and touched the collar of the shirt I had ironed myself that afternoon.
Brandon looked surprised by the blood.
That was the part I noticed.
Not ashamed.
Not frightened.
Surprised, as though my sixty-eight-year-old face had violated some private agreement by showing evidence of what he had done to it.
Amber stood six feet behind him with one hand wrapped around the stem of a champagne glass.
She had not tried to stop him.
When Brandon struck me the first time, she had whispered his name.
By the sixth, she was silent.
By the fifteenth, her mouth had tightened into something almost satisfied.
After thirty, she looked at me the way people look at a stain they expect someone else to remove.
I touched my tongue to the split inside my lip and tasted iron.
Nobody spoke.
A man near the kitchen island, one of Brandon's business partners, cleared his throat and then apparently regretted making even that much noise.
My son pointed toward the front door.
"Get out."
His voice shook.
I picked up my glasses from beneath the dining table.
One lens had popped loose but had not cracked.
I fitted it back into the frame with my thumbnail, an old habit from years of fixing cheap reading glasses on construction sites rather than replacing them.
"Franklin," a woman said softly from somewhere behind me.
I never learned which guest it was.
I looked at Brandon.
At thirty, he had my height and his mother's eyes, though that night I found myself searching his face for something of either of us and coming up empty.
"You finished?" I asked.
Amber gave a short laugh through her nose.
Brandon took one step closer.
I watched his right hand.
He watched me watching it.
Something passed between us then, not reconciliation and certainly not fear, but recognition.
If he raised that hand again, I would defend myself.
He lowered it.
"You come into my house," he said, "and you disrespect me in front of everybody."
I almost smiled.
His house.
That was the sentence that decided what the next morning would become.
I lifted the small brown-paper package from the floor where it had fallen during the first few blows.
The paper had torn at one corner.
Inside was a restored Hamilton wristwatch from 1958, the same model my father had worn until the crystal cracked while he was repairing a grain auger outside Lubbock.
Brandon had once admired a photograph of it.
He had been twelve then and still interested in things that existed before him.
"You should keep this," I said.
He stared at the package.
"I don't want it."
"I didn't ask whether you wanted it."
I set it on the dining table beside an untouched slice of birthday cake.
Amber rolled her eyes.
That small gesture bothered me more than it should have.
I had spent five years telling myself she was merely protective of her husband.
Parents can perform remarkable engineering when the structure they are trying to save is an adult child.
We reinforce rotten beams with excuses.
We paint over cracks.
We blame settling.
We tell ourselves the foundation is probably fine because admitting otherwise means admitting we helped build the thing.
I buttoned my jacket.
My fingers trembled badly enough that I missed the first buttonhole.
No one offered to help.
Outside, the night air hurt my face.
I stood beneath the porte cochere while a sprinkler clicked steadily across the front lawn, sending water over winter grass that did not need it.
Behind the glass doors, the party remained silent for perhaps ten seconds.
Then someone spoke.
A second voice answered.
The machinery of normal life restarted.
I walked past a white Porsche, two black SUVs, and a blue Mercedes Amber had bought the previous summer after telling me they were having "a tight quarter."
My car was two streets away because Brandon had asked me not to park my 1996 Buick in front of the house when guests were coming.
He had phrased it as a favor.
I had treated it as one.
The Buick started on the second turn of the key.
It always started on the second turn.
I sat behind the wheel without moving.
My hands rested at ten and two like I was taking a driver's test.
A porch light glowed across the street.
Somebody had left a child's bicycle on a lawn.
I looked at it longer than necessary.
Then I called my attorney.
Martin Kellerman answered on the fifth ring with the cautious voice of a man who had already taken out his hearing aids for the evening.
"Frank?"
"Sorry to bother you."
"If you're apologizing before telling me something, it's probably expensive."
His attempt at humor landed somewhere outside me.
"I want Redwood sold."
The line went quiet.
Martin knew exactly which asset I meant.
"Now?"
"Tomorrow."
"That's not how selling real estate works."
"We have the cash offer from Halpern."
Another pause.
Three weeks earlier, Halpern Development had offered to buy the River Oaks property together with the narrow adjoining parcel Redwood Capital owned behind it.
They wanted both lots for a redevelopment project.
I had rejected the offer because Brandon was living there.
More accurately, I had rejected it because I kept believing the arrangement could still become what I had intended.
Martin sighed.
"That offer expired Friday."
"Call him in the morning."
"Frank, what happened?"
I looked at myself in the rearview mirror.
My lower lip had swollen.
There was a red mark beginning beneath my left eye.
"Brandon hit me."
Martin did not answer immediately.
"Once?"
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"Thirty times."
The number sounded absurd when spoken aloud.
