Chương 6
“What did you think was happening?”
My uncle looked down.
“Victoria told me you were changing.”
“Changing how?”
“She said you were angry all the time.”
I stared at him.
“When did she say that?”
“After your pregnancy announcement.”
I felt something cold move through me.
“So every happy moment became evidence against me.”
He opened his mouth.
Nothing came out.
That silence was an answer.
“She told me your mother was scared,” he said.
“She said Diane wanted to intervene before something happened.”
“And you believed her.”
He looked ashamed.
“Yes.”
“Why?”
He rubbed his forehead.
“Because I remembered your mother after your father died.”
I frowned.
“What does that mean?”
“She fell apart.”
I knew that.
Everyone knew that.
“She was barely functioning for months.”
He looked at me.
“And you stepped up.”
The words hit me unexpectedly.
“You were a teenager, Elizabeth.”
I looked away.
“You cooked.”
“You took care of Victoria.”
“You made everyone believe things were okay.”
My throat tightened.
“I was a kid.”
“I know.”
His voice broke.
“I know now.”
That was the first time anyone had said it.
Not that I was strong.
Not that I handled things well.
That I had been a child carrying things no child should have carried.
But the realization came years too late.
Uncle Robert reached into his coat pocket.
He placed a small envelope on the table.
“I found this after the police contacted me.”
I did not touch it.
“What is it?”
“Something Victoria left at my house.”
Michael looked at him carefully.
“Why give it to us now?”
His eyes dropped.
“Because I finally read it.”
The room became quiet.
I opened the envelope slowly.
Inside was a printed email.
The sender was Victoria.
The date was two months before my baby shower.
I read the first line.
And my entire body went cold.
“I think we need to make sure Elizabeth never gets the chance to raise this child.”
I read the first line again.
Then I read it again.
The words did not change.
The meaning did not soften.
“I think we need to make sure Elizabeth never gets the chance to raise this child.”
I placed the paper back on the table because my fingers had started shaking.
Uncle Robert looked away.
Michael picked up the page and read it himself.
His jaw tightened.
“Did you know about this?”
Uncle Robert closed his eyes.
“No.”
“Did you know she was planning this?”
“No.”
Michael leaned forward.
“Then what did you think those documents were for?”
Uncle Robert did not answer immediately.
That was the part that hurt.
The hesitation.
The tiny space where a person decided whether the truth was worth saying.
“I thought they were preparing for a possibility.”
“What possibility?” I asked.
He looked at me.
“That you might not be capable of caring for the baby.”
The diner suddenly felt too bright.
The sounds around us became sharper.
Forks touching plates.
A child laughing at another table.
The coffee machine hissing behind the counter.
All of it continued while I sat there trying to understand how people I loved had quietly discussed removing my child from my life.
“I never gave you a reason to think that.”
“No.”
His voice was barely above a whisper.
“You didn’t.”
“Then why?”
He looked down at his hands.
“Because your mother said she saw things I didn’t.”
I laughed quietly.
It was not happiness.
It was disbelief.
“My mother saw what she wanted to see.”
Uncle Robert nodded.
“I know that now.”
I hated those words.
I knew that now.
They were the words people used after damage was already done.
After they had chosen comfort over truth.
After they had helped create something they could no longer undo.
I folded the email carefully.
Not because it deserved care.
Because I needed my hands to do something.
“Did Victoria ever say why?”
My uncle looked confused.
“Why she wanted this?”
“Yes.”
He hesitated.
“She said she was trying to protect the family.”
I stared at him.
“The family.”
He swallowed.
“That was the word she used.”
Of course it was.
Family had always been the shield.
The reason people expected me to forgive.
The reason I stayed quiet.
The reason I had spent years accepting things that hurt me.
Because family was supposed to mean something.
But somewhere along the way, my family had started using the word to excuse anything.
After we left the diner, I did not speak for most of the drive home.
Michael did not push.
When we reached our street, he parked but did not turn off the engine.
“You’re thinking too hard.”
I looked at him.
“That’s a strange thing to say.”
“You always do this.”
“Do what?”
“Try to find the exact moment where you could have prevented someone else’s choices.”
I looked away.
Because he was right.
I had been replaying years in my head.
The conversations.
The arguments.
The missed signs.
The moments where I could have asked different questions.
The moments where I could have been less forgiving.
“I should have seen it.”
Michael shook his head.
“No.”
“I should have.”
“No.”
His voice became firmer.
“You should not have to investigate people who claim to love you.”
I felt tears building.
“I trusted them.”
“That’s not a mistake.”
“It feels like one.”
He reached across the car and held my hand.
“Trusting someone is not the thing they did wrong.”
I squeezed his fingers.
That night, I opened the nursery door.
I had avoided it for days.
The room looked exactly the same.
The small bookshelf.
The stuffed animals.
The soft yellow walls.
The rocking chair Michael assembled even though the instructions were missing three pages.
I sat down and ran my hand over the wooden armrest.
A month earlier, I had imagined sitting there with my daughter.
I had imagined reading stories.
I had imagined my mother visiting.
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I had imagined Victoria holding her niece.
Those dreams had not just disappeared.
