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“What else?”
“She documented arguments.”
“Our arguments?”
“Yes.”
“How?”
“She wrote down things I told her.”
I stared at Claire.
The cold feeling returned.
“You helped her.”
“No.”
“You told her things she used in court.”
“I didn’t know she was building a case.”
“You signed papers.”
“I thought they were temporary.”
“You talked about me.”
“I was sick.”
“That doesn’t erase what you did.”
“I know.”
“Stop saying that.”
Tessa began crying.
Not loudly.
Her face simply folded, and tears ran down both cheeks while she stared into her cereal.
Every word between Claire and me died at once.
I moved toward her, but she slid off the stool before I reached her.
“I don’t want Grandma to take me.”
I crouched.
“She’s not taking you.”
“You don’t know.”
“I won’t let that happen.”
“You said you don’t know what happens next.”
The correction was immediate and merciless.
I looked at her wet face.
“You’re right.”
She wiped her nose on the back of her hand.
“So don’t promise things you don’t know.”
Claire covered her mouth.
I nodded.
“All right.”
It hurt to agree.
“I won’t.”
Tessa looked at her mother.
“Did Grandma want me because Dad was bad?”
Claire got up slowly.
“No.”
“Then why?”
Claire crossed the room but stopped before touching her.
“Because Grandma was scared.”
“Of Dad?”
“Of losing control.”
The answer sounded like something Claire had spent years trying not to say.
Tessa frowned.
“Those aren’t the same thing.”
“No.”
Claire’s voice broke.
“They aren’t.”
The second phone buzzed again on the table.
We all looked at it.
This time the message was not from Roxane.
The contact name read MOM.
The preview contained only eight words.
“I have the files, Claire, and I’m coming over.”
Claire stared at the message until the screen dimmed.
Then she stood so quickly that her chair struck the wall.
“No.”
I picked up the phone.
“What does she mean, she has the files?”
Claire was already moving toward the front window.
“She got into the unit.”
“You said the unit was in her name.”
“The payments are in her name.”
“That sounds like access.”
“She told me she hadn’t been there in years.”
“You believed her?”
Claire looked at me with something close to contempt.
“For once, could you stop acting like every bad decision I made happened because I’m stupid?”
The words hit hard enough that I almost answered in kind.
Tessa was still standing beside her cereal bowl.
Her face had gone blank in the way children’s faces sometimes do when they are trying not to make adults worse.
I swallowed whatever I had been about to say.
“What happens if Evelyn brings the files here?”
Claire shook her head.
“I don’t know.”
“That is becoming a theme.”
“Gabriel.”
“What?”
“She may not be bringing them to show us.”
The phone vibrated again.
Another message from Evelyn.
“Do not call Roxane.”
Claire reached for the phone.
I held it away.
“Why not?”
“I don’t know.”
“She keeps saying that name like Roxane is the danger.”
“Maybe she is.”
I stared at her.
“You spent four months hiding this woman from me.”
“I know.”
“You left our children alone because she told you to meet her.”
Claire flinched.
“And now you’re telling me maybe she’s dangerous?”
“I’m saying I don’t know who’s telling the truth anymore.”
The admission changed the room.
Not because it solved anything.
Because it was the first time Claire sounded afraid of Roxane.
Tessa wiped her cheeks with both hands.
“Can Grandma come in?”
Claire turned toward her.
“I don’t want her here.”
Tessa looked at me.
I wanted to tell her no one would enter unless we allowed it.
Then I remembered my own promise not to promise what I could not know.
“We can keep the door locked,” I said.
“And we can decide before we open it.”
She nodded.
It was not reassurance.
It was procedure.
Procedure was what I had.
I walked to the front door and turned the dead bolt.
Claire followed me halfway.
“You should call the police.”
“For what?”
“My mother has documents that concern our child.”
“That’s not a crime.”
“She took them from a storage unit.”
“A storage unit she pays for.”
Claire pressed her fingertips to her temples.
“Then call someone.”
“Who?”
“A lawyer.”
“At seven in the evening?”
“Someone.”
I looked at her.
“Do you have one?”
She did not answer.
That was answer enough.
“You already spoke to a lawyer.”
Claire folded her arms.
“Once.”
“When?”
“Two weeks ago.”
“About Tessa?”
“Yes.”
“And you hid that too.”
“I was trying to find out whether the old petition could still matter.”
“What did the lawyer say?”
“That depends on what was actually filed.”
“You didn’t have the records.”
“No.”
“Which is why you wanted the storage unit.”
“Yes.”
The pattern was becoming visible now.
Not one secret.
A whole private infrastructure.
The second phone.
The messages.
The lawyer.
The meetings.
The lies about errands.
Four months of decisions made in rooms I had not known existed.
“What lawyer?”
“Maître Lenoir.”
The French title sounded oddly formal in our kitchen.
“Family law?”
“Yes.”
“Did Roxane recommend her?”
Claire hesitated.
I felt my jaw tighten.
“Yes.”
“Of course she did.”
“That doesn’t mean anything.”
“It means Roxane has been directing this from the beginning.”
“She was helping me.”
“Was she?”
Claire looked away.
Mathis began complaining from the playpen.
The sound started as a low grunt and escalated into an indignant cry.
I went to him.
He lifted both arms toward me.
I picked him up and smelled the back of his head.
Milk, sweat, baby shampoo.
For three seconds I stood there holding him, looking at the scattered toys on the rug.
A wooden giraffe lay beneath the coffee table.
A sock was caught under the sofa.
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Someone on television in the apartment next door laughed loudly enough that we could hear it through the wall.
Normal life was continuing at offensive volume.
