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"""David slapped me twelve hours after I went into labor, while our newborn son was still trying to figure out how to breathe against my chest.
My head snapped sideways, and for half a second the recovery room became nothing but white light, antiseptic air, and the thin electronic chirp of the monitor beside my bed.
Then my son made a small startled sound.
I folded myself around him before I even looked back at my husband.
“Don’t touch him,” I said.
David stood beside the bed with his hand still half raised, as if he had surprised himself with what it had done.
His face was red, but his eyes were fixed on the baby.
More specifically, they were fixed on the baby’s eyes.
Our son had opened them only moments earlier.
They were blue.
Not soft gray-blue or the cloudy color newborn eyes sometimes had, but an unusually clear, cold blue that had made me laugh when I first saw them because I knew those eyes.
I had grown up under a pair exactly like them.
“He’s not mine,” David said.
The nurse near the sink stopped writing on her clipboard.
“David.”
“Nobody in my family has blue eyes.”
“He was born forty minutes ago.”
“Don’t.”
His voice cracked on the word, and somehow that frightened me more than the shouting that followed.
“Don’t stand there and make me stupid, Claire.”
“I’m lying in a hospital bed.”
“You cheated on me.”
The nurse moved toward him.
“Sir, you need to lower your voice.”
David pointed at our son as though presenting evidence to a jury.
“Look at him.”
“I am looking at him,” she said.
“He doesn’t look anything like me.”
“He is a newborn.”
“David,” I whispered, “my father has blue eyes.”
“Your father?”
He gave a short, ugly laugh.
“That washed-up old man?”
The nurse glanced toward the doorway.
I followed her eyes.
My father stood there holding a tiny blue teddy bear by one arm.
He had apparently arrived in time to hear everything.
His faded flannel shirt was tucked badly into old jeans, and the left lace of his work boot had come partly undone.
To David, those clothes had always been proof of what he already wanted to believe.
Dad was simply Claire’s retired father, a quiet widower with an old pickup, a small house outside Alexandria, and an irritating habit of paying restaurant bills in cash.
David had never asked many questions about what Dad had retired from.
I had stopped volunteering answers years ago.
My father’s gaze traveled from the red mark on my cheek to David’s hand.
Then he looked at the baby.
For one strange second, his expression softened.
My son blinked up at him with the same icy blue eyes.
Dad set the teddy bear carefully on the counter.
David finally noticed him.
“What are you staring at?”
Dad said nothing.
“This is between me and my wife.”
Still nothing.
David took one step toward the doorway.
“Did you hear me?”
My father looked at me instead.
“Claire?”
It was only my name, but I heard the question inside it.
I tightened the hospital blanket around my son.
“I’m okay.”
Dad’s jaw moved once.
I knew that movement.
It had frightened me when I was thirteen and had lied about taking his car.
It had frightened grown men too, although David did not know that.
“You’re not okay,” Dad said.
“I said I am.”
My voice came out sharper than I intended.
For a moment, hurt flickered across his face.
That hurt made me angrier because I did not have room for his feelings, David’s rage, the nurse’s alarm, my own throbbing cheek, and a newborn who had been alive for less than an hour.
David seized on my irritation.
“See?”
He turned toward Dad.
“She doesn’t need you barging in here playing protective daddy.”
Dad reached inside his jacket.
David smirked.
“What, you going to write me a strongly worded letter?”
The object Dad removed was black, thick, and ugly, with none of the sleekness of an ordinary smartphone.
I had not seen that encrypted phone in years.
The last time had been at my mother’s funeral, when a man in civilian clothes had quietly approached Dad beside the cemetery gate and said four words that made him disappear for three days.
I never learned where he went.
David laughed again.
“What is that, from 1998?”
Dad pressed one key.
“Dad.”
He looked at me.
I shook my head.
Not because David deserved protection.
Because I knew my father.
There were parts of Lieutenant General Thomas Mercer that I had spent most of my adult life trying to keep outside my marriage.
David knew Dad had served in the Army.
He did not know three stars had once sat on his shoulders.
He did not know senators had returned his calls, or that men with security clearances still addressed him as General when they forgot he preferred Tom.
More importantly, David did not know my father had never learned how to respond proportionally when someone hurt his family.
Dad lowered the phone slightly.
“What do you want me to do?”
The question was for me.
That mattered.
I swallowed.
The nurse was already touching the red call button clipped to her badge.
“I want him out.”
David stared at me.
“What?”
“I want you out of the room.”
“You’re throwing me out because I caught you?”
“You hit me.”
“You pushed me to it.”
The nurse’s expression changed.
Until then, she had been professionally calm.
Now something closed behind her eyes.
“No,” she said.
David turned on her.
“Stay out of this.”
“I can’t do that anymore.”
She pressed the button.
David looked back at me.
“You think you can keep my daughters from me?”
The mention of our girls hit harder than his hand had.
Emma was nine.
Sophie was seven.
May you like
Lucy had turned five the previous month.
Four-year-old Grace still climbed into our bed whenever thunderstorms woke her.